LOVE

   Lately I've gotten to talk to all of my closest friends. And although we are going through the same things one thing that we are going through that is very different from each other is Love. We are experiencing it but at different levels. 

I think I can speak for every girl out in this world that the "one" thing we long for most is finding "prince charming". And we want him to appear right now on his white horse and to sweep us off our feet. 

           I currently don't have a love story. But in reality I do and I just got hit in the face by it. My love story with God is starting and growing. Yes I do already have a relationship with God but I don't think I've really thought about "our love story". God wants us to long for him. We should love him so much that he should be the only one that we want to love. Sometimes I think he wants us to hit rock bottom with a boy to realize that His love is the best and most important. 

God is preparing our hearts for the one we are going to spend the rest of our lives with. I believe he puts the wrong ones in our lives to show us we will have better. But first seek Him and he will provide you with your hearts desire "if you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."-Matthew 21:22

            I can honestly say that I've been looking for love. And maybe did things to try and make things work when I shouldn't have tried to fix it. Because its not up to me on how things come to me. It's the way Gods Will is made for me. It took me awhile to realize this. Although it was nothing serious. I've had my heart crushed recently and it took all of that to realize that my faith does not need to be wrapped around something I want rather wrapped around what God wants for me.   

  Although it didn't feel good that my heart was aching the reinsurance of my faith in God is what keeps me going. There is a reason why that "someone" isn't in my life yet. God is preparing both of us to be right for each other. And while I wait for that exact moment when that person walks in to my life, I will pour all my Love in to the Lord and do what he wants me to do with it. I've never not loved God but this Love is different. It's letting God know that I am trusting him to write my love story for me. I'm excited to see who he has planned for me. 

           I'm at the point in my life where I am going to stop looking for Love and let God put it in my life when he knows my heart is ready and his heart is ready. 

   It's going to be hard but I'm ready to give it my all. 

"Above all else, guard your heart. for everything you do flows from it."-Proverbs 4:23

Love,

Briana

Younglife! Polar Bear Weekend!!

He is ALWAYS there!

This weekend was so incredible!  I was blessed to have the pleasure to do work crew this past weekend for Younglifes Polar Bear camp! I didn't know how much this would change my life. On friday I was in Kindergarden all over again as I arrived to SRD and was surround by people I hardly knew. I was scared and nervous there was so many new faces. How was I going to get through the weekend? Luckily some of my friends from my high school were also chosen to do work crew at the camp I was going to! It was comfterning to see familiar faces I knew. As we packed in to a car friendships started. Our first night there was awesome seeing over 600 kids run in to the clubroom was amazing. Knowing lives were going to hear the TRUTH was mind-blowing. By Saturday I had met so many new people. It was like we turned in to family. It was nice knowing that I was in a group that Loves serving, especially for people we don't know. We constantly took the time to pray for everyone in the camp for their eyes and hearts to be open. It was no doubt that Gods presence was there. Saturday night "the talk" was given. For me it was the two year mark from when I was saved at Polar Bear camp. What surprised me is that they played the exact song  that I was forever saved to. As I started singing "Amazing Love" I stopped and prayed, prayed for all the kids in that room that they found it in their heart to be saved right there that night. And thanked God for the ones who have already been found. As the talk finished I stood up and found Brett the area director to thank him for what he puts on every year. Talking to him I started crying because I kept looking over at the kids saying "I know hearts are opening right now", I see myself two years ago". It was such a honor to see what God was doing there that night. 

The weekend finished on such a good note on Sunday. All the kids were so happy and so excited to hear the gospel. I felt like all of our work was paid off. It was hard to say goodbye to all the amazing people I met. Every single one of them will always be in my heart. 

This weekend really opened me up to many different things that I'm about to share. I have been so moved by Younglife and the meaning behind it that I never knew. I feel like God put me there this weekend for a purpose. I know now its my calling to serve kids and become a leader. I am so overjoyed to have found that here this weekend. I can't wait to get involved this coming semester. I'm ready to change as a person to love more. I can't wait to see how God leads me in this ministry. I'm excited to read more and more in to the gospel to help me understand what God wants me to share with everyone I know and people I don't know yet. 

As many of you know I've had my heart on Transferring to Texas Tech soon! This weekend has really put me at a stop to that. Getting to know the Austin Younglife staff has really made me think about staying here. I want to continue my walk with Jesus with all the amazing people I have met. I think God might be telling me something that keeps leading me back home. I will just have to leave it all in His hands knowing he will let me know what to do. 

Going back to the normal life after a retreat like this is hard to do. Because you go from such a loving place with loving people with values just like yours to a toxic outside world. I'm striving to make it out alive and spread the Word of Jesus to everyone I know and meet. I hope that anyone who reads this can pray for me because this is going to be bumpy ride. I'm praying that with me and all the younglife staff that we can change our generation and the upcoming generation. Because we have seen the light we have been saved. We are loved by Him. There is no better gift then that, so why not spread it to more people? 

"We are the work crew we serve the Lord in you"

Love,

Briana